数不清这是心情低落的第几天了。我还是很喜欢自己的工作，可是我真的很累，身体和心理都很累，我觉得快要坚持不住了。每天的8小时正常工作时间内都像机器人一样忙，查自己的个人邮箱都会有负罪感。加班。。。无论加多少班，也总有干不完的事，我痛恨每天那么多小时对着电脑，心里知道它对身体的辐射和对眼睛的伤害有多大可是又不得不死盯着它。我拿到办公室的小花才两个礼拜，叶子就已经软了，每天拿着它到处找太阳光晒的时候就想到其实小花多少还是比我幸福一点，至少每天能晒几个小时太阳…朋友昨天给我发了封信，里边有句话让我觉得特别有道理，可是又特别无奈，We are born to live, but not living because we were born… 可我根本控制不了自己的生活。我觉得我的累渗透到了骨头缝里，昨天突然问我妈我会不会过劳死，真的我已经连续好几个晚上做恶梦了。梦见工作，梦见生病。我想好好休息，想找回以前疯子一样精力充沛的自己，谁能告诉我该怎么办？

在电视里听到了丘比沙拉酱的广告，已经不再是10年前的我的声音了...挺伤感的，自己真的是老了。

 

我想当妈妈，特别想要孩子。看着爸妈那么亲密，也想要一个自己的家，有个男人爱我保护我，有个男人可以心疼可以爱。

 

我还得谢谢Matthew, 还有参加他生日会的一大堆漂亮姑娘们，那天晚上之后我真的想开了不少，谢谢亲爱的们。

见不到你的时候特别恨你，对我越好就越恨你。

可再恨你都是那个对我最好的人，过去是，现在还是，不知道以后会不会是。

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