I thought God eventually found me holding the number slip waiting for love at the corner. I thought I would do everything to make us happy. But I was wrong…

I couldn’t concentrate on paper work or anything, so left all the messy stuff on the desk and left the office at 6 o’clock for the first time…

Thank God anyway for the present she gave me, I had such a great time. Now I’ve got to pay for it. Be back to the corner and wait at the very end of the queue.

Ex sent massage last night and asked if I was OK, I wonder why he sent the message at the “right” time when I was not feeling OK. I felt even worse when I got the message, I didn’t need it anyway.

God if you could hear me…I want love but not mercy. If you couldn’t guide me find the right person, please just keep those seducing gifts away from me. Daddy’s little girl’s not born to be hurt.

That is how I feel, I am writing to remember, or to forget, I don’t even know that…that’s life….people can’t get everything they like. I’ve got a lot already…maybe somebody needs love even more…